Christmas, 2009

stay here

this is it

be christmas to somebody this year

i am talking to myself



http://oatmealjoy.blogspot.com/2009/11/christmas-2009.html



Christmas, 2009
by joey arnold



this really is it

how do you know
how can you know
how can you not know

that this is it
that this really could be it
this could be it
this christmas
you could be michael jackson

this could be it







this could be it

this could be the end
this could be it
this could be your last show
this could be the end
this could be the beginning
this could be your chance
this could be your time
this could be your last chance
this could be your last opportunity
this could be it
this could be your very purpose
this could be your time to shine

or this could be just for me




i only speak as a man
i am only thinking
i am only writing to myself

but stay tune

because this is it



there is a story

that you must hear
that you can hear
that you would love to hear
that you will hear










Christmas, 2009

that is the story

that is it

but i have yet to tell it





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and
guess what
guess what i am going to say
no
i am going to say
just one more time
for emphasis
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but must i tell it
must i share it
must you care
is it my call
is it my strength
is it
no
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maybe
what must be
what must i do
that is the question
that is the legend
that is the fact
that is the turtle
what am i saying
what am i tryin to say


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am i



yes
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but i will tell you more, later


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ok
that is what i say to self
or to you
but in other words
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in case you missed this
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by Joey Arnold

No. I may not stay. I am not sure if I should. This whole story would be about you. But I just cannot tell your story for you. I can give you advice. But then again, I can barely give myself advice.

No. I cannot stay. See my cry. Oh, wait. Now, I would like to tell you to stay, too. This could be a Christmas message. You do not have to take this as a command.

But I got to start with myself. And I have to share this with you. I have to share my story with the world. I am just having a hard time getting the words out.




But I really have to say this. It is burning inside of me.

I have to stay. I am not saying that I have to stay. But I still wrote it. Excuse me. But they want me to stay. But this story is so complicating to tell. There are birds in this story. There are hawks in this story. There is not a duck in this story. There is not a tree duck in this story. There are no cartoons in this story. But there is a hugging bear in this story.





But must you know.

I do not want to tell you.

I am not lying. I said that I want to share. But I still don't feel like sharing. That is why I am just typing right now because I am trying to run away from this. I am always running away. I do not want to stay. I want to settle for less. That is what my bird friend tells me. I mean, he tells me not to settle for less. But I am Joey Arnold. am the Oatmeal Joy. And I have a life to live. I have a Christmas play to do. They want me to do it. I think they want me to do it. I think that the kids want me to be there. That is part of the story. But that is not the whole story.




I am just too confused to talk about it.

But I should stick with.
I should stick with my New Years Resolution for 2009.
That is you.
I will be there for you.
Maybe not you.
But for some people.
Never let go.
I will be there for you.
So you can get your joy on.
That is GYJO.




Stay here.

But I am not doing justice. And my computer is not doing justice. It took me four hours just to get online. That is how slow my computer is. It is not doing justice. I spend most of my time trying to do justice. I try helping people. But I just don't have what I need to do what I must. Life is so short. But I must not complain. I must not worry. But I do. But please forgive me. Forgive me for even writing this. Forgive me for all the people I offend for the many things I do. There are so many things I do that are just not best. Pray for me. Or write to me. Because I am not doing justice. If you are upset with me then just let me know. My heart may already be crushed already but you can't do too much to add to the pain. But no pain then no gain.




I must do justice.

I fail so much. Forgive me. Pray for me. That is what I want for Christmas. I just want you to pray for me. That is all I want for Christmas.





Pray for me.
For Christmas, 2009.




That is it.





Pray for me.

I wish I could tell you why I want prayer. But it is just so hard to describe my pain. It is so hard to describe my confusion. There are many things I want to do. I want to help people. But God is telling me to focus and to live as I did when I was younger. I am being told to do as I have always done. To be Joey Arnold to the kids and people on or through my path. But please do not misquote me. This is not the whole story.







Stay Here.

That is my story. But I am not sure what that means. Do not just think in physical geographical sense. What I write is rarely ever literal. I might be talking in exact right here.

But I am not really sure. But I do have a lot to share on life.




I am just a little depressed.

I feel that all is lost. Because I cannot see past today. I have lost all of my friends. I only feel that way. That does not have to reality. But I still feel that way. I know better. I really do know better.

But I still feel broken. I feel like a failure. I feel totally lost. I feel like I have ruined my friendship with everybody that I know. I feel like nobody can trust me.

That is how I am feeling.

But don't let your feelings dictate your life. I let my feelings control me. That is what I am saying. We are told to let our hearts be our guide. Trust yourself. Believe in yourself. But when I do so, I die. I die. I will have to say that again. Because my heart must be guided by my wil, my spirit. That is what I want you to know.




What is God's will.

Oatmeal Joy.

I will have to explain this more, later.





But I have still yet to tell.


I want to tell you how I am.


But I cannot yet.

But I am going to give my all to people for Christmas.



For Christmas, 2009.

I will give my all.

I will tell you more, later.

I have yet to talk about it.


Please beg me to buy a camcorder.

But either way.

Cam or no cam.



Please stay here.

And.
I will still have to tell you the story.


That is in progress.


Tell you more later.








but
before i go
please tell your story
how will you give your all
for christmas
2009






how will you
how will you
how will you
how will you




how will you